Viewings and funeral is over and we are back to daily living. Spring break is over. We spent time with my father-in-law going through some things, and just hanging out. Now the kids are back in school, and we are back to the grind.
My kids have lost their second close grandparent in less than 2 years. This is hard for them. At least the youngest two understand this time around, and had a chance to grieve at the funeral… although I would give anything to spare them the grief.
This is the part I struggle with the most. After the crying and the expressions of sympathy, the world moves on as if the person never existed, and the family is left with a gaping hole.
It is the way of things, and I understand it… I just struggle with it. I’m always strong through the process for everyone, and now I get my time to be weak and emotional and to grieve and be sad… and everyone else has moved on. Well, not everyone. We will struggle for some time to come with the loss of a wife, mother, grandmother, sister, mother-in-law…
On a somewhat funny note, I’m allergic to my wedding ring, so my father-in-law had me pick one of my mother-in-law’s rings to use for a new wedding ring. He and I took it in to be sized, and the lady behind the counter had me use the ring sizing thing to find out what size I am. She looked at me funny and asked me, “Is that the finger you’ll be wearing it on?” and looked at my father in law, back at me, as she asked. It hit me later that she was wondering the nature of our relationship that I was getting a ring for my ‘ring’ finger from a much older man. He got a big kick and laughed for a long time out of someone thinking he was my ‘sugar daddy.’ LOL So we have a new family joke.
