I’ve back-slidden, fallen off the wagon, whatever you want to call it. Not because I’ve fallen into some sort of sin, or started drinking, or something like that. No… it is because I’ve grown complacent. The illness that caused me to stop reading/praying/searching was valid. But now? Now it is more that I’m just out of the habit or something.
So I need to get back into the habit. I need to get back to my First LOVE. JESUS.
I want the romance back. The love of my life back. The relationship that rocked my world… I want it rocked again.
“It is well that it is within thine heart…”
Comment by TheNorEaster — February 28, 2010 @ 6:15 pm
I haven’t known what to say…and once again…Nor said it perfectly.
Comment by Michelle — February 28, 2010 @ 8:40 pm
I usually don’t know what to say either.
Heidi Wilson
Comment by HW — February 28, 2010 @ 8:55 pm
mmmmm….I’m so understanding…..same thoughts roll around inside of me. I don’t think you’re backslidden at all though dear friend. maybe in some “back of the desert” like Moses was for all those years, but not backslidden. And just as with him….one day, you will happen upon a burning bush. Or perhaps it will be just a tiny spark of a match stick. But either way, when there’s been next to nothing of a flame, even a match stick is welcome! The Beth Moore study has been helping me. Just making the Word and me “turning my heart” toward Him part of my routine…..and trusting that as I draw near to Him, He’ll draw near to me like He said. He’s not lied to me yet…so I’m hopeful. Love you!
Comment by Kelly — March 11, 2010 @ 7:31 pm
kelly, thank you! Can you imagine coming across the real burning bush? wow. And that first day of the study was like cool water to a thirsty soul… God is so good.
Comment by Heidi — March 11, 2010 @ 9:00 pm