Honestly, it has been so good for us to live the hermit’s life the past few years. Well, almost. We see my mom, and one of my sisters rather regularly. In fact, my sister and her 4 kids have stayed with us on and off the past few years. That means 3 adults and 8 kids in the house. If the kids only realized we were outnumbered, and they could take us, we’d be in trouble! haha
But living a quieter life, and being away from a church setting has really been good in deconstructing the things that were so hammered into us. We’ve learned so much.
I don’t know if we will go back to a church setting or not. I do miss worship… I do miss a church family. I don’t at all miss the expectations and the pressure to be someone I’m not. So we’ll see. I guess it will depend on what we are looking for when we do go back. Can I keep from getting caught up in the rules and religion rather than Jesus? I don’t know yet. Or better yet, is there a place where we can be ourselves?
Some days I feel such self-condemnation. Other days, when the fatigue and pain are weighing on me, I think how nice it is that nobody is expecting us to be anywhere for this program, or that pot-luck. It is honestly hard enough to keep up with my kids and their schedules without adding my own.
Anyway, just dropping a line to say hi and start catching up with everyone again.
We are planning a trip to Florida in December. I can’t wait to visit with family, and hopefully get a day in at Disney with the kids.
Love,
Heidi
