To Be A Fool…

Honestly, it has been so good for us to live the hermit’s life the past few years.  Well, almost.  We see my mom, and one of my sisters rather regularly.  In fact, my sister and her 4 kids have stayed with us on and off the past few years.  That means 3 adults and 8 kids in the house.  If the kids only realized we were outnumbered, and they could take us, we’d be in trouble!  haha

But living a quieter life, and being away from a church setting has really been good in deconstructing the things that were so hammered into us.  We’ve learned so much.

I don’t know if we will go back to a church setting or not.  I do miss worship… I do miss a church family.  I don’t at all miss the expectations and the pressure to be someone I’m not.  So we’ll see. I guess it will depend on what we are looking for when we do go back.  Can I keep from getting caught up in the rules and religion rather than Jesus?  I don’t know yet. Or better yet, is there a place where we can be ourselves?

Some days I feel such self-condemnation.  Other days, when the fatigue and pain are weighing on me, I think how nice it is that nobody is expecting us to be anywhere for this program, or that pot-luck.  It is honestly hard enough to keep up with my kids and their schedules without adding my own.

Anyway, just dropping a line to say hi and start catching up with everyone again.

We are planning a trip to Florida in December.  I can’t wait to visit with family, and hopefully get a day in at Disney with the kids.

Love,

Heidi

I’ve been trying to catch up a little from my long absence… but y’all talk (write) a lot! So I’m finding my self deleting a lot just to get to the point I can read current posts.

Anyway… working on it.

Today I’m hurting all over from this damn fibromyalgia, so I’m laying low. Hope you are all doing great.

I’ve been so sick the past few weeks.    It figures.  The kids are all in school, and brought me home something nasty.  I don’t think I’ve been this sick in years!  I think it was a case of the flu.  I hope it wasn’t the swine flu, since my kids are convinced you get that from kissing a pig!

But I’m on the mend now, which is great cuz I’m getting really tired of the view from my couch!

Good morning to all my friends in blog-land.    Ok, It isn’t really morning anymore, but I just got home from pediatrician/errands/grocery shopping.

My little girls started Kindergarten this year.    When did they grow up?  They will be 6 in November, and it is amazing how fast the time has gone by!  Wasn’t it just yesterday they were in the preemie isolettes?  I’ll have to dig up some pictures so they can see how tiny they were.

I’m alone during the day for the first time in over 10 years!!!!!!!

(Well… almost alone.  My husband works from home, but he sequesters  himself in his office most of the day.)

I’ve been gone for awhile, I know… it has been a tough road this past year. I think I’m on my way back up, but we’ll see.

I saw this video today on a friend’s facebook page, and thought of sharing with y’all.

This is something I remind myself of a lot… I hope that one day it can become an automatic thing, rather than something I have to stop and think about!

I’m heading out for a spur-of-the-moment vacation with my mom and kids. We are heading to NC to see my sister. Of course, I’ll be on-line there.

Hope you all have a great weekend too!

Celebrate Independence. In our country, and in our lives. Whom the Son sets free is free indeed.

I miss you. It was a year ago you were so sick, and we gathered around your bed to give you the presents we had for you. You mentioned “next year,” as if you would still be here, but a few weeks later you were gone.

I miss you, Daddy. So much has happened this year I want to share with you. The kids are getting bigger, and your little girls are starting Kindergarten next year! They miss you too. Really badly.  The littlest one took a long time to realize what your death meant, and now she is afraid to let anyone out of her sight because they might not come back.  She was very worried about you because you left your cane behind.

Your grandson is going into 5th grade, and he is turning into such a great kid.  He wants a job so he can start earning his own money.  Your oldest grand-daughter is going to be in 4th grade, and she is all about makeup, boys, and Hannah Montana… and she is becoming a huge help around the house.

Daddy, I know you are in heaven, having a blast! But I’m feeling selfish today, and I really wish that you were here with us.

I miss you, Daddy… and I love you!  Have a great father’s day with your Heavenly Father.
Love,
me